PAIN OF ABSENCE

The regret that you can't return is something you can only see in hindsight. Because you will more or less remember it.

Before you even realize it the pain of regret, the sense of duty and even the feel of shame upon failing diminishes, after months even the lingering feelings of regrets and duty which stays inside us and shout “Stop, reconsider before it’s too late”, but we are powerless not just mentally but also spiritually and go on and on, then the voices of your conscience stop and the feeling no longer form. The thing you later realize after years has passed is how empty you are, how weak and worthless you have become but even so you don’t stop and continue mindlessly and end up losing a future of a vivid life.

AVARICE

Greed. It’s is synonymous to an overflowing bucket, even if it can’t hold water after a given capacity. It’s still beneath the tap, with water whizzing above and around it, flowing to the sink then the gutter. In conclusion it is wasted. Now, the one at fault is it the bucket or is it the tap?

It’s human nature to ask for more, no matter what it is as long as it doesn’t cost them. They will ask for more. Even if they are aware they already got more than needed even if it goes to waste they will hunger for more. They will suck up everything from the one who is giving, not minding the state of the giver. Out of a pure human nature which is principled on greed.

Thoughts begets emotions begets desires begets hunger begets greed. 

ILLUSIONS OF HERESY

Power is the crown that eats the head. That quote is not original. I quote it from a book. In that book, the protagonist is wronged brutally and when he is helpless and lost, he tries to exact revenge on the very society which is quite a dystopian one. He insurrects the ranks of power hungry monsters who exist for the sake of ruling and conquering. Constantly fighting each other for power struggle. Sensing this the protagonist tried to pit them against each other by manipulation and deceit, when they fought and fell one by one like a queue of dominoes. He finally realised, he is the only monster left standing at the end of it but it was too late for him to realize it. As he received what every other being even in the real world got when they rose too high.

History has been witness to everyone and has shown what happens to those who soar too high like the wax wings of Icarus, which melted when it touched the sun and brought death to him when he fell on ground. I think no.. I believe, power corrupts our mind and twists our heart making us lose our true selves and dilutes our morals. It makes our very code fragile and fragile until it’s broken, even if we are aware of the change, even if we know what we are missing we are too drunk in it to sober up. Power shows us illusions of control and puffs our vanity, makes us think we are entitled to everything, the world is a meal taken to be granted. But all we do is sink deeper and deeper in that swamp. And like every other person marked in history, for not their deeds but for their mortal foolishness, History repeats. And teaches us to never forget but learn from it since for those who forget it are prone to repeating it. Throughout history no such being, no matter how strong his will, ever existed who can resist the illusions of the forbidden, the fruit of heresy.